That mean's there is plenty of time for things to go wrong. It's going to be a pretty long bridge as even though I am in remission, I still have 18 months worth of treatment left. It's a bit like that saying everyone said when your secondary school crush broke your heart. This would be due to me not being able to change the past this was my life now and nothing or no-one had the ability to turn back time and change it. If I still woke up every morning feeling anger at the fact cancer had made its way into me and commenced a fight with my life then I would be feeling an unnecessary emotion. I couldn't start the next chapter of my life if I kept re-reading the last one. and that would enable me to let go of the past. I would rather get out all the emotions I was feeling and talk about the way I handled things. Most of them are in the past and I do not want to dwell on things that have either upset, angered and/or frustrated me. but writing down the negatives is like throwing them away. I never had any intentions in making this blog all about the downer's of cancer and in fact I have loads of positive outlooks on the whole cancer thing. I love to focus on the positive's, but I definitely know what it feels like to not see any positives in a life full of chemotherapy, steroids, blood transfusions and hospital's (I'm at it again with the negativity.). Although this experience has made me question things such as, do I want to bring another life into this cruel world? I would rather take this experience as a more positive learning lesson than a negative bump in the road. I have no intentions of not living a long, happy and healthy life. With the threat of my life being taken away from me it quickly made me realise how short life really is and has only encouraged me to pursue my dreams even further and make a career I love, Louboutins or no Louboutins. I was young and all though I hadn't accomplished much with my life. I absolutely loved the idea of loving and living life to the fullest before I was diagnosed. Being constantly negative is far from my personality.
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